Getting ready

I go in to the hospital for more work tomorrow. I'm not sure what to expect. I'm told a blood transfusion and a colonoscopy are on the agenda.

I wasn't given any instructions or laxatives for the colonoscopy. I don't know if they intend to do that tomorrow or Tuesday.

This is the first time I've been a patient in a hospital since I was eight.

I feel fine now, with the H2 blocker allowing me to get a decent night's sleep. Still tired, but that's the most I can say.

I'm trying to keep right mindfulness and attitude about this. It's a great opportunity to focus on original mind. I don't actually know anything, but of course my imagination keeps running forward to all kinds of scenarios, most of them unpleasant.

But I still don't know anything.

But assuming the worst... well, no. Let's not assume anything. That's the point. I don't know, and there's no point in projecting all my anxieties, fears, hangups, emotional baggage, etc. onto a situation where I don't know anything.