Thursday, October 25, 2007

Thursday 7:13 am

Something I forgot to mention:

Before I became interested in Buddhism and learned about the concept of dukkha, I spent some time in therapy. One of the things I learned in that experience is that life is supposed to be boring.

Life is filled with mundane tasks like doing laundry, flossing your teeth, cleaning up after kids or pets if you have them, mowing the yard and so on. If your life has none of this, and your day is filled from start to finish with excitement and drama, something's wrong.

Knowing that and living that are two different things.

I'm not only bored by the boring things – I'm bored by the supposedly interesting things. And sometimes I feel almost paralyzed by the ennui.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I, for one, am bored to death by ennui. Been there, done that.

And who says life is supposed to be boring? For that matter, who says life is supposed to be anything, either exciting or boring or somewhere in between?

Life simply is. Life is our empty glass and you can put whatever the hell you please into it.

some people might look at my life and see it as boring and others could look at my life and think "my, how interesting" and someone else would be left just shaking their heads.

If there actually is a "life is supposed to be" out there, it's a slippery concept in my mind because what we do as teenagers, young marrieds, older and elderly appears distinctly different. (See, Shakespeare's 7 stages of man, e.g.)

I had a few billion years of nonbeing before I was born and I'm racheting towards another few billion of nonbeing at a day to day rate. I think, for me, I'll fill up this between time with some memories to carry me through the time when there is no memory.

It's a charade. A flash of shadow on the wall. A passing parade. Nothing nothing nothing at all.

Like all short term phenomenae, I'll take mine with a dash of humor since humor is the only singularly human thing about my existence. Everything else is just mammalian: eat, drink, sleep, shit, procreate. Ahh, but laugh? THAT's homosapiens. Gimme summa that.

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NonSense Sonja said...

lol
no, life is not boring, some people just have an great talent to MAKE it boring.
they only do things they will feeled boring by doing, they talk about things what make them fall in sleep, they alos surch partners wich give them the most boring feel ever.

but some times, they are wondered why life is so boring...smile...
the biggist gift what life gives us is the possibility to change our life every single day...no, even every single hour or minute, if we want to.

some people needs or want to have an line of right doing things in life, others take the life more flexible and do what they want to do. everything is good and fine.
but we, every single person have that in the own hand.

guess, i´m not known for making the usual things, like cleaning, yard etc. right in time and every single day, but probably that is why i never feel bored at all...

Lark said...

Life is full of the ordinary things but it is also possible to take great pleasure in some of the small ordinary moments of the day.

Forgive me if this is out of line, but I think you ought to get some help. You sound very depressed and heading for worse. If you have two feral kittens running around, and they mate, you have the makings of a real mess. Plus if they really are semi-feral but in the house you could get hurt.

RJ said...

Lark, Mcarp is the king of feral kitties!

mcarp said...

Well, I probably am depressed, since I seem to always be depressed.

As for the kittens, they're still several months away from being able to reproduce, and I will have them tamed by that time. In just the past couple of days, they've both started hanging around me while I sit at the computer, and one will occasionally let me pet it.

I've been through this before, and while they'll probably always be a little more 'stand-offish' than fully-tame cats, I don't think they'll ever be dangerous. I have two adult cats here who came to me the same way, and they're doing fine.