Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Wednesday, 3:20 a.m.

Wheee, just like the good old days. I can't sleep. Quiet mind, where the hell are you?

iTunes: Koku, Okada Michiaki

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

You have the answers. You're on the path and when you're ready to not be attached to this, assistance will be standing in front of you, or you can meditate for 3,412 years, 6 months, 2 weeks, and 32 1/2 minutes.
My process was:
teenaged nervous breakdown
drugs, alcohol, dean's honor roll
freak out for 20 years
contemplate suicide
meditate 3 hours/day 24/7 for 5 yrs
go back to therapy
move out of state
contemplate suicide
read 200 self-help books
25 years of 12 step program work
out-patient treatment
go back to therapy
anti-depressants
ta da--bliss and happiness
the results are in--the only truly quiet mind is glimpsed as the 10,000 monkeys in my head jump from tree to tree--the trick is to make them small and turn down the volume with all the tools available. Use them well. From Neem Karoli Baba, "Tis better to see God in everything than to try to figure it out." It really does get better. Bless you.

Anonymous said...

I woke up last night right at 3:40 am. Thought of you.

Anonymous said...

Cloud-hidden.

Whereabouts unknown.

Anonymous said...

I got yer quiet mind, right here, buddy.

Very un-zen of me to do this, but here goes:

Your mind is awash. The voices are telling you contradictory things. Thoughts are in circles and spirals and they are overwhleming you with speed and changes in vector.

Take an intermediary step between that and trying to clear your mind.

Imagine a serene place. Put yourself in it. See yourself going to a bench and sitting in mottled shade looking over a babbling mountain brook or oceanside beach.

Go through a checklist:
No matter what happened in the past or may happen in the future, right now I'm safe and fed and clothed and housed and I have friends and pets. I have this chance right now to calm down and put those things aside that have been bedeviling me. This is a time to listen to my subconcious and the universe as to their answers to my questions and quandaries.

In other words, forcefully turn your mind to calming thoughts, breathing more deeply and regularly. Focus on yourself as a part of the whole rather than apart from the whole.

Just speaking for myself, my mind is too busy to leap into meditation or even just to go to sleep. I must take baby steps, as above.

Then, I usually plan my suicide and have my nervous breakdown and try to overdose on laxatives and allergy medicine, those being about the only pills I keep around the house.

Defiantly anonymous,
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